Repressed Emotions

I want to kiss you

 

I want to kiss you when I see you

Hold you tight and never let go

Talk to you night and day

Make love under the gazing moon

 

Feel the warmth of your flesh against my flesh

Feel your lips all over mines

Be in the essence of your spirit

Travel once more in your mind

 

Yet in every moment I see you

I will just gaze in silence and shake your hand

Because I’m weird like that at times

That’s why I give good hugs instead

 

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The realization of what I have and what I lack the most

I’ll say others are emotionally vacant when in actuality I’m emotionally unavailable

 

Unable to speak my words but find the comfort to do so with my pen

The greatest confusion of all is how I made it far like this

 

But if I could tap into it all I know that life will be a true gem

I have to let go of all my fears and break down the walls that I have built

 

The realization that your own emotions can be what hurts you to the core

Made me abandon my own feelings and built the wall that I wish was no more

 

The door is finally in sight

It’s blurry still but I can faintly see

 

I’m tired of holding how I feel inside

It’s time to let fear go and just be….